Crossing the smokey dusty noisy road...taking back the books i had been meaning to return, i saw that guy whom i seen at Starbucks. Was it yesterday? Two days ago? He was doubtfully crossed the street from the other side. I dunno if he noticed me at Starbucks and today but we were that close.

"Damnit.Why he doesnt show up today?"

The library man whom i befriended with wasnt there today. Instead, this coldfish non chattie guy took his seat behind the long brown breast-high table. He'd ask for the fines which, i assume, will go to his own pocket and leaves the 'fine book'
clean.

I dunno this friendly librarian name and the way we became was rather funny. He noticed me actively borrow books or come simply for reading the magz, spend considerably long hours, looked seriously or laughed weakly or talked to myself.

"So, what are you doing now?"

"Working."

"Hum?"

"Citibank."

Then he went on talking for quite a long time telling his issues in credit card stuffs and went on saying how good his fellow library staffs at getting away from the bank debt's collectors. That very day, he allowed me took three items out of the library, "don't tell anyone!" he said.

Since then, i never pay the overdue fines. Hahahahaha..

Anyway, seeing this unknown guy--he's Caus--reminds me how i need someone so bad now...reminds me that i'm lonely...i've been pretty ignorant when it comes to companionship... and was good at it...but it's over now...i need THAT person now...someone who can be true to me...someone i can talk to about anything...not someone who will babysit me...but someone who will be available for mutual trust, affection, and fulfilments...not only a shoulder to cry on..lips to kiss...a body to caress...