tick tock tick tock...2 in the morning. Couldnt sleep
. I'm afraid am getting good at stay awake
now...reached the TV remote, ran my fingers but it failed to glue my eyes. The radio wasn't appealing...the bed looked so stiff and hard...so i lit up the room,i dont need two lights in this room...Went to the kitchen thru the dark living room, heard the next door's TV humming...

Gulp, gulp, gulp...what a relief.
Two hours before, i was chatting with Robert. A short chat. Then i checked my email, nothing.

Servaas. Please. Please. Anything...God! I wrote him a few days ago using my other email addy but no reply. I was scared to death, or, rather, sad my heart out..then..two new emails on Spam box.

One of them was from him. My heart raced. Whatever the letter says, at least he DID write back and that's more than enough...

Couldnt help but smiled...relieved...excited...i read it carefully as it was a precious childhood stuff i've been looking for for years...he was worried about me, too. Yahoo can be a real bitch sometimes. He has sent me email twice on June. How c an i lost it?!

Well, dont wanna lost my cool over this thing. Well, hugsssss for ya dearest Servaas..!

..returned to my bright lit bedroom. Couldnt sleep. So, i sang Jason Mraz's IM YOURS, danced a bit--i know it was almost 3 in the morning--then i washed my face, sat. Silent. I looked around and said to myself that i would love to have a bite of cake, a bowl of ice cream and a glass of milk. None of them available within arm reach so i brushed my teeth.
Next thing i knew i was walking to the living room and reached for the brown wooden cupboard..opened it and took John Irving's The Imaginery Girlfriend. And it helped me went to dreamnation.

Al will be home tomorrow nite, so need to make sure things are in order, clean and all. Kinda miss'em both. So, i paid the electric bills today, walked to the net cafe and chat with Steve.

It's kinda dull day but i have a good laugh...took a few bites of coockies.

Heard from Matthias again after a while. He's back in the Germany and is seeing this interesting guy. Cool! Good luck with that, buddy!!

Above all, am glad knowing everyone i love and appreciate..people who are precious to me are doing fine out there...

Happy.