You know how stupid you could be, giving yourself options while you perfectly knew what's the only solution, like, do it right away?
After finished my shift yesterday, I was in a stupid dilemma:
- Go to Melati to buy veggies and stuffs, or,
- Go to plaza for something I dunno
- Go straight home and feel sorry for doing none of above
There was a few people Q-ing at th ATM center, looking busy themselves with phones, and this made me think how desperate we are human to seek for whatever companion just to keep ourselves from the thought of being alone, even in the crowded place. I took my mobile, just to check out the time, 5 pm.
They're making new shopping complex in that residence area make it looks like city in the city, only for the middle-class folks.
However, I decided to stop the bus to the market. On the way, in about 10 minutes, I was busy figuring out what to buy for two-day meal since Thursday I'll work late nite shift.
I was thinking about salad days, and funnily, cucumber always came on my head. I know Al eats it alot but with my low blood pressure, i am suggested not to munch it at all, or, less.
And I was having a problem when I looked for lettuce, which was nowhere to found.
"You know, this thing you use for salad?" I kept asking the women, each stands, and got dumb look from each of them, "try to find it over there," was their wisest answer.
Two days, I dont need to take home loads of vegetables and fruits, I kept reminding myself, so I only bought some carrots, some potatos, a string of Kangkung, some bananas,
and some oranges.
I ignored those funny looks from the wives and the girls on the minibus. I shot them fuck-yourself look when I took off. FYI: they find it a bit odd to see a guy having a shopping spree, especially for food and stuffss in the traditional market.
I was so proud of myself for making the right decision until Al suddenly showed up with eggs and other stuffs and was all, "What are you cooking?" and, "my suggestion is you boil the potatos and the carrot before you mix'em with the Kangkung," which made me felt so stupid. But in the end, he was right, and I had non-salty veggie meal for dinner [I have a tendency of putting way too much salt into whatever I cook, I just find it fun, and I know Kiko hates me for this, I can see the way he looks at me in the middle of the nite.]
And then I got a missed call at 2 in the morning from a friend/relative/neighbor which gave me a panic attack and I thought about the death in the family, an arranged marriage plan for me, or the city has been swept away by Tsunami. I waited till this morning but I dont find any news on the paper, nor from my family, so maybe it was just him tryna bug me.
It is so cloudy right now--12.20pm--and I saw alot of blank stares from inside of the mini bus and internet users inside this building [but on this case, they're looking at porn sites, maybe.]
I bought myself a lontong plus fried chicken for breakfast from next door, and the chicken was stale, fried with some raw meat inside, and I think I'm gonna have a massive breakdown with lots of noises and unanimous fragrance in the restroom soon.
And it's still Wed.
