... and his name is Ashley Penny

The first impression doesn't always blow you away, or something.
Rather, sometimes, your anti social mode took over your body and soon or later, you would find that your so-called judgment standards are totally failed and it takes more than a kiss-in-the-cheek and cheerful Hiiiiiii to know his warm lovely colorful kind personality.

...and his name is Ashley Penny. A simple hearted Aussie whom i only met in his last weeks of stay/work in the city. Sad.

It is true, indeedm that i dont miss the water till the well runs dry. We went out to the Tavern and the club...twice? Three times? or more? A totally alien thing for me because i was raised so in Christianly modest way. I dont fancy the songs....i dont fancy the beers or vodca or the dance floor....I wholeheartedly enjoy the companion, the silly things and funny things and eeeew things and ao things and hahahaha things he showed me, he kindly shared with me and with a few friends.

But then, i didn't realize how i enjoyed his cheerfulness and companion until last nite when we hugged and said good bye...
He loves sending tons of message in any given hour of the day/nite saying nothing but 'Weeeeee..!' or, "Apaaaaaaa?!!!!," and never failed to show his appreciation by saying, "..it's been Fun FUN FUN..!"

He leaves for his hometown, Melbourne, tomorrow then headed to Sanghai for another job contract.
I hate to know I already miss him eventhough i dunno much about him....
The last time i felt this pand of sadness was when my dad died, and it took me so long to realize i've been missing him until after we left his funeral ceremony. I broke down and wondered where i've been...

"It's much more better to leave Medan and you guys when everything's so right, everything feels goood,"Ashley said last nite. And he's right...

However, this is a beautiful goobye...my dearest friend, Ashley.

Can't wait to see ya again this December or on March next year...We all surely will miss you soo much.

Thanks for every single thing. YOu dunno how much you changed the way i see things in life...thank you...!


Good bye for now my beautiful friend, all the best and be sure that you are loved, you are loveable...and you will definitely get good friends in Sanghai...

One Upon a Time

We met,
We tlked,
got wasted,
talked,
talked,
we talked,
went home,
talked again,
fell asleep,
we talked,
i left your cribs,
we met again,
and you failed to remember my name...
Sad.

I'm so into rock at this moment. Getting emotional, maybe?

It feels so good to scream out and singing along the lyrics while jumping up and throwing head back and forth, closing my eyes and trying to reach out THAT comfort zone when i finally feel soooo free and wild and fired up.

The best thing in singing and listening to this music is that i always end up sweating and kinda dehydrated: relieved from unwritten emotion and long kept anger...

I will become a rocker, I think. But on the second thought, Russel Watson really turns me on! Classical is so classy and sexy. Am good at singing LIKE him.

Is there any gay classical singer? Anyone?

Uh oh, none, eh?

Feels like wanna start all over again, so i set up another blog and will post everything here and abandon those old ones. DUh!

And I completely forgot which email addy i used for Facebook a few months ago. So, i had to sign up all over again and posted the same old photos. And added a few friends.

Al, my bestie as well as my landlord has gone to S'pore for vacation with his BF and niece? So, there are three of us left now, plus Kiko, the Dog i once loved. He killis rat, which is a good thing, pees and poops at good spots for you to step to.

A short update:

• Zack's dad passed away and i wish could give him a lil piece of comfy smile. Too bad i cant meet him up at KL during his short visit.
• I never heard from Servaas for a while now. The last time he contacted me he was leaving for Latin America trips.
• I need to see the doctor soon! I do hate going to hospital, i hate those airs of despairity, loneliness, sadness, restlesness and most of all, that goddamn lil needle really scares the hell outta me. I prefer a bucketful of pills and tablets, please. My low blood pressure is started to annoy me. I gained one kilo now, which is a good sign! Eat more, JErry! Oh, that belly ain't appealing at all, though. Urrghhhh
• Bro David has a plan to visit me sometime on December. Hoooooraaayyy!!
• Don't hear any news from my family back in Sibolga but i read they had another earthquake again.